
The feeling, however, is not as settling as I had hoped. Although I’m extremely happy where we are right now, picture lock seems so final. Like there’s no turning back. And no matter how confident we may be, there’s always that tiny hesitation leaking through the cracks of my brain – “did we cut it fast enough”? “Should we have kept that line?” “Why didn’t we speed up that take!?” It’s a never-ending battle between the self-contained confident director and the aspiring filmmaker who’s still trying to prove himself.
I guess filmmaking is always a battle. A battle of personalities. A battle of talents. A battle of ideas. And, like all battles, once the explosions subside and the dust settles, a calmness and peaceful sunlight will finally emerge.
And if that doesn’t happen, we can always call John Locke.